Probably

Probably I have spent too much time in becoming a drifter till I don’t recognise myself anymore. A case of lost identity?

There are many times we know what we ought to do but we didn’t do it. May be we are too governed by the emotions we have at that point of time.

Regarding to John’s story, my acquaintance just updated me that John has decided to let Jane go but he still struggling with his feeling. Though he told Jane that he’s ready to remain as friend, there are many times can’t help himself but keep on feeling that his decision is not right. Every single thing that Jane did to him, no matter how small (or big) has a significant impact to John. There are many times John tried with all his might not to response spontaneously to these actions (as it could be a misunderstanding anyway)

There’s one question lingers in his mind: Is loving someone a crime?

Hmm… I do not know the answer.

Excerpt from The Canticles of the Hyenas (1999),

It was a love unanswered,

a love which was never meant to be…